The September breeze, leaves falling and subsequently rotting on the ground
the supposedly "fall" season isn't here yet.
still, the sun is shining as if it is still summer..

sigh, anyway we need the vitamin A.

i realize that this year is not as stressful as the last during this particular time,
maybe its adaptation, maybe its my new-found nonchalant attitude towards most things,
okay,no its not new-found... i am always like that...


with the talk of University in one of my classes, i am starting to get wandering thoughts scaring the **** out of me..
not that i am gonna change my mind of ever entering, but the what if statements are clouding the future i seem to envision previously...

what if, no-one is going to accept me..?
what if, i do not qualify ?
what if, i lose my interest halfway and quit...

so many so many....
i can't afford to slack away anymore, i can't afford to be in a state of ignorance..

i cannot betray anyone's expectations...especially my parents..

hah and this is how i feel after starting the school year..