a new letter just came in from SFU.

Its another congrats letter that highlights basic terminology and what one should do on his/her first year.

but but but.... SHOCK !

it also comes with the recommended courses.

uh actually this is the part where i am unsure.

why do i have to take physics if i am in biological sciences..

how is the two related ?!

in any way ?!

tell me !!

and i think it is not just recommended, it is required ! for every first year student in Sciences !

!$@# la !! 

I absolutely despise physics to the core of my being.

what shall i do ???

now i am wanting to go to SFU.

not that cocky UBC !

not replying me at all !

you think you are number one ah huh !!

SIGH..

its another matter about physics, but what about calculus?

hahaha another one i hate.

if there are so many subjects i dislike, i wonder if i am really fitted for studying.

maybe i should be a rogue/nomad, travelling across while doing odd jobs to support myself.

that could be better than studying ?

or just go to college and learn some random trade skills, becoming a labourer.

why does life have to be so difficult?

so i went to church today..after a long long time of not going.

while i watched the band play various songs, i suddenly felt something surging, 

...................

i want to play the drums ! 

thats what !

the drums, absent from my life these two years.

i miss it much !

The weather.

how is it that on the same day, it snows and is sunny before?

the hail/snow falls unexpectedly on the unfortunate people.

i really hate this weather, the ground slowly turns white, like cotton covered ground

now this may project a beautiful image, it is actually depressing.

its the wrong season ! snow season has passed damn it !

unstable weather conditions scare me a little.

is it a sign ? then what ?

noo daylight savings time !

forward one hour !

give me back my one hour !

oh the kite runner..

so bittersweet.

the author is downright depressing, although the book did held my interest for a long time..

and i just checked my TOEFL score today, well i got 105/120 !!

stupid marker gave me the lowest point in the speaking section.

haha did not expect that at all.

since it was an absolute borefest, not to mention the painstakingly long hours that the test took.

Im glad i took it though, takes a lot of worries out of my mind for the moment,

i have a safety net now if i EVER fail English.

the latest little that has been wandering in my mind for a while now is which University should i choose

UBC

SFU

UBC 

SFU

UBC

SFU 

!?!?!

prestige, size, worldwide recognition?

all those fancy things that i once thought was the most important deciding factors

But well, it turns out i dont really care for such things. i was simply just following the flow.

many will praise UBC and how it is the 'best studying opportunity' that one could ever have.

Well... "best" is how you define it yourself, its a relative thing. doesn't apply to everyone.

but who am i to judge, i'm just an inexperienced student worrying over these kinds of things.

ultimately, i think the decision will reveal itself and the future is for the future to worry about right?

sigh..